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Ball-Jointed Diary's avatar

the moment I saw the title I RAN to read this and I’m glad I did. Such a beautiful and perfectly articulated piece, I couldn’t relate more. I was deep in the tumblr bdsm porn princess era… (usernames everywhere were either painbunnie or obedientfairie, lol…) and as I’ve grown up and reflected on my digital hypersexuality as a teenager I’ve come to the same conclusions you have ❤️

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asa's avatar

thank you sm <3 i’m so glad someone was there with me esp bc whenever people are like “substack is just like tumblr for your thirties” i think to myself we were definitely not on the same side of tumblr lol

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hannah smalls's avatar

girl you have me gagged and bound at my work desk, there's simply no more to this monday. i am packing up and going home!

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asa's avatar

hahahahha i love you friend

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hannah smalls's avatar

ILYSM 🫶🏼

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fluxus 🧙🏿‍♀️🦷☕️🌱🧚🏾's avatar

"liquid men who hang women’s intestines from the rafters as trophies, who wear our skins whenever they want to feel warmth." so insane ❤️

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asa's avatar

thank you sm love <33

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TJ's avatar

If hypersexuality in men is to consume as many women as possible, maybe hypersexuality in women is to be consumed as much as possible. At least that’s how it feels for me. . .

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asa's avatar

hmmm i can see that in what im saying here for sure <3

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Bee Hallihan's avatar

And here I thought I was unique in my bottomless blackness. Love this, no words

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asa's avatar

thank you sm <3

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Rhia Faith's avatar

This is so well written! I found that side of tumblr just before its ban of explicit content and I feel it’s definitely affected the person I grew into. Mainly in how “a man with the alphabet tattooed on his leg” threw me back to a time that I’d completely forgotten about, and I wasn’t prepared for that call out 🥲

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asa's avatar

thank you so much <3 and alphabet leg man absolutely changed my brain chemistry—still trying to decide if that was a good thing or a bad thing lol

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Nikia Bella's avatar

We have nearly the same story. You explained what I already realized, and wrote about, in a more poetic way.

You’ve brought us all together.

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asa's avatar

i’m so happy that you have found yourself in my writing, and i’m grateful you’re here with me now <3

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heaven's avatar

perfect

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asa's avatar

omg my fellow virgo, i miss you around the substack office

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heaven's avatar

omg weely 👉🏼👈🏼 i have some posts lined up !! as an ex-tumblr pr0n reblog account, this post was so inspiring. i’m gonna binge your other stuff now bc i’ve been feeling so lost in the ~rhetoric~ saws but have been craving more real raw personal experiences. thank u love <333

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asa's avatar

tysm:) and i follow you on ig and threads too so im excited for your new project and what you’re doing to cultivate real connections too. i’m trying to use those platforms more actually, feel like i been on substack too much, but please bless us with a post whenever you’re ready <3

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heaven's avatar

wait you’re so sweet thank you for this reflection 🤲🪞 tbh i was feeling a little disconnected from everyone here, which is kinda why i disappeared haha. but now, after talking to you, i feel more welcome n inclined to be here 🥹🫶 pls i’d love to see u more on threads! i just know they’d love u on there

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asa's avatar

im actually imagining how i feel on threads/ig is how you might be feeling on substack—where it’s like everyone in the cafeteria is already sitting at their tables and ydk where you should sit, but then you see that one person you know and you feel a little better and you go sit with them lol. so maybe like on substack you come sit at my table and on ig/threads i go sit at your table and then we’ll get comfortable enough to do our thing <3

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heaven's avatar

this is exactly how i imagine being online omg!!!!! i love that for us 🥹🥹🥹 yes pls come sit at my table any time 💘💘

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eve is typing's avatar

Obsessed. Your writing style is insane

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asa's avatar

thank you sm <33

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HANNAH's avatar

This is everything

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asa's avatar

ilysm <3

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Bree Foster's avatar

You pulled the words right out of my mouth.

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asa's avatar

<33 i’m honored

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C.S. Mee's avatar

I devoured this

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asa's avatar

thank you baby ily <3

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fluxus 🧙🏿‍♀️🦷☕️🌱🧚🏾's avatar

the alphabet tattoo...i hate that i know who ur talking about but it also just shows how much i relate to this essay in general 😭

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asa's avatar

hahahaha knowing alphabet man shows how deep we have gone hahaha

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Delise Fantome's avatar

I teetered between the edge of falling i to your poetic velvet blanket and paying strict heed to the serious conversation of how hypersexuality manifests in two different ways. I was, you could say, edged and appreciative for it.

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asa's avatar

this is actually the response i was hoping for <3

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Princess Ashley's avatar

This was eloquent and reads as delectable. You made me feel like I was eating and worshipping at the same time. And it was equally as poignant. Fantastic read

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Crimson's avatar

You sell pornography to teen boys. You are a child predator.

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